I'm Dying...Inside..

Three years of middle school....ruined, wasted, in the past... in present day comes to realization that i'm alone, as it has been... will be and always, forever. Hoping for the hopeless, having faith in nothing to come. Waiting patiently for a sign, anything to keeping going. For so long yearning for an understander, someone who can let me out of my cage. For now, i'm a lost, beaten puppy, looking for an accepting owner to love. Three years of wasteful thoughts of nothing in return of so much generosity. A lonely angel, seeing and helping happiness, but not experiencing it herself. Alone. AGAIN. Is there someone there that can see my invisible form...feeling as i'm an easily forgotten person. Giving nothing but hard work and the strength of hope. But what's the use now, for my realization. Slowly losing hope. slowly losing myself. What am I becoming? Who am I? I look to find that ONE to pull me from this dreaded place....my mind.