Look what happens when i mess up..

FAILURE
DISGRACE
DISRESPECTFUL
UNFAITHFUL
DISHONOR
UNTRUSTFUL
USELESS
VALUELESS
MISJUDGEMENT
ERROR..
You don't understand the pain and effort i have to get through just to get your approval.
for every single thing and detail...
Just to make you proud.
I care,
for every slip up i make is like 1000 slashes to the face because i'm scared you'd disown me and be ashamed...
I fear that to my life...
For i'm like a ticking emotional time bomb,
anything will set me off and its agony spreads and hurts...